Let all that I am

Letting all that I am hope in You, Lord...that's not easy. Watching my friends have their children is painful...I am happy for them truly happy...and so incredibly jealous. At the end of the day, where is my heart? Where is my greatest treasure? Some people tell me that this season is for a purpose...God has something greater for me...is there anything greater than having children to nurture and love.
One thing I am learning from this season is a glimpse of the Father's heart. He went through torture for our souls and yet all of His children have not been "born" and He waits. He longs for His children more deeply than I can imagine. It breaks my heart that so easily I can get caught up in my routines that I forget how He longs for each of His children to come home to His arms. The desire in me to be a mom increases all the time. Father, You have given me a quick glimpse of Your incredible deisre to nurture each and every child You have made. Thank You for this season. I wouldn't trade it for anything...and yet my heart longs for my children.